The stories of all that God is doing in and through the people at Church of the Apostles.
Tuesday
The Panacea for Pride
Monday
Discernment in Coronavirus
In my early walk with the Lord, discernment was a weakness of
mine. It seemed an entire lifetime had already passed. A new era had dawned,
and I was eager to live it right. Trouble was the baggage from my former life.
And no one had shared how to get rid of it. Old habits had to be overhauled into
Christ-like habits...and what was the best way to go about this?
Random thoughts flittered across my mind, trapping me in
befuddlement. I’d have to find a way to keep a sense of continuity. I coached
myself by thinking, “Only a distraction...Focus on what the Lord has
for you.”
Phone calls were the worst. With no answering machine or cell
phone, I felt compelled to answer the phone. It might be my Mom who was out
of state, or it could be my husband with an important question, I thought.
Only to find out, it was someone wanting to gossip about the newest neighbor
down the street.
I bemoaned the fact that my “new life in Christ” was turning
out to be just like my old life. “I don’t want things to be this way, Lord.
I want to live for you! Help me to hear Your voice,” I prayed one day.
Things continued until one day when the kids played in their
little outdoor pool. Setting it up in a hurry, I heard a wee, small whisper,
urging me to be careful of the items I placed in the pool. Checking each toy
out quickly, I placed both children in the pool. It wasn’t long before one of
the children had a boo-boo. How did that happen? I wondered, soothing my
child with a clean band-aid on her knee, a popsicle in one hand and a new
Minnie Mouse band- aid on her knee.
When I looked back on what had happened that day, I recalled
the Holy Spirit’s whispers for safety...but I missed it. You can imagine how
disheartened I was upon this realization! I had been out of touch with God’s
direction. I prayed for forgiveness and told the Lord I could see how I missed
His prodding. Then I prayed for the gift of discernment to know His voice.
Have you ever had a moment like that? Something happened to
make you realize those little tugs were the Hand of God trying to spare you
from some fiasco.
Months prior to Coronavirus, I had one of those little tugs.
It was brought on, in part, to the feelings of unrest in our nation. But it was
also something God was conveying to me. Praying for discernment, I asked the
Lord to remove the somber thoughts if they were not of Him. It was as if the Lord were preparing me for
something that was going to happen at an uncharted time--something over which I
would have no control...and no ability to change.
But over time the same thoughts persisted. So, I prayed, “Lord,
what would you have me to do about these thoughts?” I felt the Lord saying, “Fear
not. Trust in Me and wait on Me.” Then I wrote something in
my journal; my question was resolved and put to rest.
In March of this year, when the Coronavirus was in full
force, I thumbed back through my journal. Such an odd feeling overtook me as I
read an entry dated, February 1, 2020: “I continue thinking there’s going to be
an interruption.” Just one sentence. But it seemed a pertinent thought prior to
2020. Quite so. By that time, each person, apart from front line workers, was
in stay-at-home mode. It was a stunning moment for me.
The Lord God had, indeed, answered my prayer for discernment.
I was filled with rejoicing! Yet, His message of hope had prepared me for one
of the worst pandemics in history. Although I didn’t know what was coming...or
when, He had prepared me for this critical situation. As a result, I felt only
peace. Gratefulness washed over me.
“Now, I thought, “time to roll up my sleeves and pray for the
health of our nation.”
Lord
God, Heavenly Father,
Thank
You for Your Holy Spirit, who gives us the wisdom and discernment necessary to
walk this place called home. Thank You for Your provisions in confusion and
turmoil. Be with those in need of Your mercy, grace, and healing. Lead us
onward to our Heavenly Home, which You are preparing even now for us.
In
Jesus’ Name, I pray. Amen.
By Jan O’Neal
Overcoming Pandemic Difficulties
Recently I read the phrase, “I just want to return to what we had.” Do you, also, feel like you’re walking in a new world - caught in the middle of two unacceptable choices, wishing for what we had?
We are creatures of habit—our schedules and agendas mold us into consistency. We don’t like change. I must confess little “snippities” escape now and then if there’s no consistency. Move the lens to a different angle, and picture what God’s perfect will may be in this pandemic.
As a young teacher, I recall the dismay and frustration our staff experienced when a program was rescheduled, or testing delayed lunch, or heaven forbid, playground was cancelled due to inclement weather! Teacher unease was not so much due to agenda as how it would affect the children. What then?
Children often approach change with apprehension, mistrust, and worry--for good reason. When their schedules are consistent, their lives seem to move along nicely, and growth is usually seen. Eliminate one thing...and look out! A child might become fidgety, out of sorts, or lose focus. With no strategies in place, a loss of growth is possible. Children need consistency. We need consistency. Life chugs along at max speed when schedules are consistent, and needs are met. Remove one precious asset? Uh-Oh!
At my school, teachers were perplexed during a five-day streak of 100-degree days and “O-Dark-Thirty." My sweet first grade children looked like jellyfish out of water. We drank lots of water. We played Alphabet Bingo. We found plastic counters with flashlights—then added them up. We got hot! We ate popsicles. When we can’t have what we want/need, we get creative. Some get snippety. More in a moment...
We are so grateful for God’s provisions during this pandemic. My husband, David is being treated for CLL. Like some of you, his doctors recommend we all stay at home until there is a vaccine for COVID-19. Although we are not fond of the thought of hibernating for two years, I will support my husband’s health needs because it’s part of our marriage vows. This is just one of the difficult strategies people are facing all over the world.
We are only a tiny fraction of the many faces—all of us are in this together. I say this with the greatest love and respect for those of you going through much worse. We stand with you, elbow to elbow, praying God’s absolute best for you!
“Do not resist or run from the difficulties in your life. These problems are not random mistakes; they are hand-tailored blessings designed for your benefit and growth. Embrace all the circumstances that I allow in your life, trusting Me to bring good out of them. View problems as opportunities to rely more fully on Me. When you start to feel stressed, let those feelings alert you to your need for Me... your needs become doorways to deep dependence on Me and increasing intimacy between us...reliance on Me produces abundant living in My kingdom. Thank Me for the difficulties in your life since they provide protection from the idolatry of self-reliance.” (Jesus Calling, May 10, by Sarah Young)Back to my first-grade class … first I prayed to my Heavenly Source. Then, I searched for an alternate source of air coolant. Never have I been more elated as when I found a scratched and dented box fan! It wasn’t pretty, but it worked. Funny, those long forgotten “less than” items can cause us to give thanks when they supply the greatest amount of comfort in the present.
There is a strategy for assuring consistency in the lives of children and adults. Might not be popular or cool. But it’s one we can do for our Heavenly Father. Choose to overcome difficulties...for Him. He did it for us.
Jan O’Neal
May 18, 2020
Scripture References: John 15:5; 2 Corinthians 1:8-9, Ephesians 5:20
Wednesday
Faith, Hope, and the Unseen
About a year ago, 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 popped up everywhere in varied ways...my devotions, a conversation, hearing a song or a prayer. But it was verse 18 that elicited my attention:
At first, it didn’t register that I should seek the Lord about why this was happening, or what His purpose was.
Then one day last summer, I received a beautiful card from a dear friend. Inside was a shiny sticker on which was part of the same verse. Hope in the Things Unseen jumped out at me. It was almost as if God said: “Put your hope in things you cannot see.”
I got the message. Humbled, it became clear how out of touch I had been. I began to search, wait, and hope for my next verse to arrive. It happened during the Apostles’ summer sermon series on Hebrews:
of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1)
No one loves a treasure hunt more than me! This led to cross-referencing Bible verses to know more about “things not seen,” “hidden things,” and the “unseen.” * Paul wrote about one of those treasures in 1 Corinthians 13:13.
Knowing I’m not the only eager one to find the unseen, I began to wonder. What causes these four words, faith, hope, love, and the unseen, to be linked together?
HOW TO DISCOVER THE UNSEEN IN THIS PRESENT DAY
Where does one find the unseen? Does it occupy earthly space? Are humans able to understand the unseen while living on Earth?
To answer these questions, I first had to ask myself, do you really understand what hope is...from God’s perspective? Looking up synonyms for hope, turned up abide, a synonym which means endure. Hope is not a flimsy wish...it hangs in there. Hope abides. It doesn’t give up. It withstands life itself.
Faith is found in our spiritual heritage. Just a few examples of not giving up are:
- Abraham believed in hope against hope that he would become a father to many nations; he was credited as righteousness.
- King David said, “Blessed are those whose lawless deeds have been forgiven, and whose sins have been covered.”
- When Jesus hung on the cross dying, he prayed, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.”
- In prison, Paul sang songs of praise and wrote letters of encouragement to the believers.
Worship and “the Unseen”
- The Holy Spirit’s presence in worship is such a sacred part of liturgy and crosses all barriers. God longs for us to come into His presence; He knows when we do, we will experience His unseen presence.
Music
- Listening to and singing Christian music infuses me with energy and a hopefulness that may have been lacking before. It is reassuring to me that while preparing this blog, these lyrics ran through my mind:
HOW TO GIVE HOPE TO OTHERS
Although hope is not a tangible gift, it is something that can be shared.
Encouraging Others
Encouragement, not false hope, gives others a sense of hope and affirmation. By encouraging “even the least of these,” we are being Jesus’ hands and feet. Just one note of encouragement can brighten someone’s day.
Praying with Friends
Prayer is the great equalizer, lifting us out of the doldrums and into the Presence of God. How can we not feel a bit more hopeful in His place of promise? “For where two or three are gathered in My Name, there am I with them.” Mt.18:21
HOPE FOR OUR NEIGHBORS AROUND THE GLOBE
Part of what cannot be seen are the people we will never see. Continual prayer for those we don’t know, reading His Word, and trusting Him fills those unseen gaps.
I recall a time, praying for a burden so deep, but the answer didn’t come. I must admit being discouraged. Even so, I prayed more. No answer. More discouragement. For years, I prayed continuously. Still no answer. Heartbroken, I continued to pray. Now, years later, answers are arriving...bit by bit!
I am thankful for the unseen when tiny pieces of prayers are answered. Thankfulness leads to worship and praise. Suddenly, the prayer is not so important, after all. The King of Kings is preeminent. There is peace and hope in His unseen presence as He works all things together in His time.
Lord Jesus,
Although, there is so much more to learn about the unseen, I’m not giving up on it. I pray that others won’t either. Truly, all our hope is in you, the unseen, risen Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
Jan O’Neal
April 26, 2020
Verses on Hope:
Job 17:15; Job 13:15
2 Cor. 4:16-18, 2 Cor. 5:7, 1 Cor. 13:12, 1 Cor. 13:7
Hebrews 11:1
Psalm 112:7
Monday
Resurrection Then ... and Now
Imagine the emotional turmoil in Jerusalem during Passover Week. Even before Jesus’ arrest, the twin curses of confusion and chaos had been unleashed. Judas, one of the chosen, betrayed his King. Their Messiah had been unmercifully beaten and crucified. A living nightmare unfolded for the disciples, and Jesus’ followers. One can almost taste and smell the vile injustice and cowardice. Where were they to turn now?
Picture Mary Magdalene and the women—trudging to the tomb, hearts broken and numb. Most likely their minds recalled every conversation they had with Jesus. Perhaps, none could move beyond their grief.
Mary must have felt panicked when she saw the stone had been rolled away. She wasted no time in running to tell Simon Peter and John to come see. John not only saw; he quickly determined that Jesus had resurrected and believed.
As the men left for home, Mary remained weeping, not grasping the miracle. When she looked inside the tomb, she saw two angels who asked, “Woman, why are you weeping?” After explaining to them that her Lord had been taken away, she turned around and saw another man who was Jesus. But she didn’t recognize Him.
Picture, for a moment, this sorrowful scene. Mary is beyond being emotionally distraught; she cannot recognize her Teacher, the very one for whom she is grieving. She is exhausted and mistakes Him for the gardener. But at the sound of Jesus’ voice, when He says, “Mary,” she immediately recognizes Him and replies, “Rabboni!” Her Teacher, who was dead for three days, was now miraculously alive. Mary’s belief in the fact that Jesus had resurrected makes her one of the first believers.
The poignancy of this resurrection moment is so powerful it makes me want to stop and shout, Hallelujah!! But Jesus immediately gives Mary a directive and a mission: 1) “Do not cling to Me,” and 2) “Go tell My brethren I ascend to My Father and Your Father, and My God and your God.”
If we look closer at Mary Magdalene, there are several things that speak of her faith. She was:
Devoted and Grateful
Jesus had cast out seven demons from Mary. She had been freed from the bondage of Satan, seven times over. Imagine the depth of her gratefulness! Jesus’ love had transformed Mary into a new creature, with a new attitude, and, most importantly, a new spirit. Her radical life-change directly impacted her devotion to and faith in Jesus.
Listening
Having a bit of ADD as a young girl, I recall my dad advising, “Listen up, girl.” Distraction is a black hole of befuddlement. Those were the times I lost the message and the meaning. It seems Mary’s born-again experience motivated her spiritually to listen to Jesus’ message. His teachings directly impacted the things she heard so she could trust Him fully.
Faithful
After witnessing Jesus’ barbaric crucifixion, Mary’s grief and confusion became profound; this could have stymied her faith. The unsettling flashbacks could have overwhelmed her. But Mary’s faith in Jesus spoke of bold authenticity. She would not be moved. Ultimately, Jesus blessed her with His first post resurrection apparition.
In the face of adversity, such as our present pandemic, I tend to get distracted by the “what-ifs” and “whys.” Studying these events permits me to see things clearly from God’s perspective. The Resurrection comes into its proper focus.
Since Jesus is the Resurrection, His blood sacrifice cancels all sins for all eternity to any who believe. Resurrection is validation that we are God’s children and are part of His family.
Jesus’ resurrection frees us to boldly proclaim with full hearts: “Christ the Lord is risen today. Hallelujah! He is risen, indeed! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!”
Lord Jesus,
Words cannot adequately express our thanks to You for the free gift of Eternal Life. Teach us to be effective Resurrection people every day of the year, so that You would be lifted high and glorified. We pray this in your holy name. Amen.
~ Jan O’Neal | April 12, 2020
Bibliography:
Matthew 28:10
Luke 9: 31
Luke 18:31-33
Luke 18:34
John 20:1-2, 20:11-16
Hebrews 11:1-3
Thursday
Mission Partner Highlight | The Gideons International
During his early teens, Anthony Payton chased after drugs in hopes of filling a void left in his heart. He would get paid for the drugs he was trafficking and then use the money to support his own addiction, a habit that landed him in jail.
He began attending a bible study led by a Gideon, who would often visit the jail. Anthony developed a relationship with the Gideon, and he would listen to the message of God's word week after week. During one of his visits, the Gideon pulled out a New Testament and shared a series of passages with Anthony. There in that jailhouse, Anthony prayed to receive Jesus Christ. Today, he serves as a pastor leading others to wholeheartedly reach people for the Lord.
Apostles provides financial support to the Gideons who use 100% of the funds to purchase and ship scriptures all over the world. All overhead/administrative costs are paid by the Gideons themselves. Our church also has a Gideoncard display in the upstairs lobby. There you can donate bibles in memory of a loved one, in honor of someone you want to remember, or to simply say "Thank you" or "I'm praying for you" to someone.
You can get much more information about how the Lord is using the Gideons: gideons.org
Wednesday
Out Of Idleness: Post-Sabbatical Note from Rev Eric Bolash
Post-Sabbatical Note from Rev Eric Bolash
I’m back! It wasn’t easy setting the alarm for that first Monday morning, but I came in to a “decorated” office as my welcome back from sabbatical.
I realize it’s been an exceptionally eventful summer for our church. That’s putting it mildly. Although I haven’t been here, I know it’s been difficult. As I return, I am ready and want to be available to walk further with everyone through this time. Call or email if you’d like to get together. I’m eager to listen.
My time away was restful. The Bolash family had great adventures in Iceland, London and Scotland. A few highlights:
● We met some spirited Icelandic teenagers in a store called Reykjavik Records
● We saw Shakespeare’s A Comedy Of Errors at The Globe
● We tried Haggis in Scotland--which I do not recommend
● We saw Nessie at Loch Ness--I can show you the photo
● Robin and I stayed in an 11th-century Scottish castle
● Robin and I spent several peaceful days in a quiet Scottish fishing village by the sea
Otherwise, as much as I could during the last two months, I have woken up in the mornings, made coffee, had breakfast and then gone out to a quiet spot to read Scripture, pray, walk, read poetry and write poetry. The Lord brought refreshment through the time.
The above title, “Out Of Idleness,” is a phrase from Herman Melville’s novel, Moby Dick. In the novel, Captain Ahab roars his command at the sailors to “split your lungs with blood and thunder” as they pursue the white whale. Meanwhile, in contrast, the harpoonist sits nearby, completely still, quietly waiting. From the book: “To ensure the greatest efficiency in the dart, the harpoonists of the world must start to their feet out of idleness and not out of toil.” Author and pastor Eugene Peterson points out that the harpoonist appears unproductive. But this is only so that when the right moment comes, he is rested and ready for his unique task.
So, being away allowed some time for idleness. That was a big theme. All of us as Christians need idleness. We need sabbath. Jesus said sabbath was created for us, as a gift to us. In it, we learn that God is always at work. Sometimes he invites us into his work. Sometimes he rests us so that we are again ready for work.
Below you’ll find a sampling from the poems I penned during the time away. I learned that writing decent poetry is harder than it looks. Some of mine was pretty terrible! But the use of words to communicate spiritual truth is an important part of pastoring, so it was a valuable component of my time away.
Out of Idleness ~ Poems From Sabbatical
I am looking forward to seeing everyone again in worship and joining with you in God’s work in and through this church body.
In Christ,
Eric


